| August 27th, 2023 | Wow, it's been a while since I logged in to this. I wasn't sure if anyone would even bother looking at anything I posted here, but Neocities tells me I have almost 2000 views so I hope at least one of those people liked what they saw. As a quick update, I'm still alive. I've long since dropped out of college, and now I work full time picking orders in a warehouse. I have been working on my art at in incredibly glacial rate, but I won't be posting any of it here because I've sorta abandoned this site. So long! |
| June 17th, 2020 | Lately I've been feeling like I'm just sort of pissing my life away. My apartment is filthy and there's dirty dishes and empty boxes everywhere, I haven't even touched 3DSmax since I made this website, and I haven't done anything productive. Earlier this month, I got an internship in the cybersecurity section of a big tech company. Under normal circumstances I would probably be fine with this, albeit a bit drained from re-entering the workforce after a long absence, but due to the pandemic it's an online internship. It barely feels like I have a job at all, listening to zoom meetings in my pajamas and leaving 8 hour long training seminars on in the background while I play Animal Crossing. I've once again been forced to confront my complete lack of discipline. The thing is, I'm not sure how I can become a more disciplined person on my own. I know that all changes come from within but I don't place a whole lot of faith in myself on a normal day. In other news, I've started dabbling in a bit of worldbuilding. Over the few years that I've been alive I've had a lot of thoughts about different settings for all sorts of games I would want to make, but very rarely would I actually write anything down. Long story short, I've rediscovered that I'm incredibly bad at putting my thoughts into words, but I'm going to go ahead and write things down anyways, no matter how bad I think they are. I might even post about my various ideas here. Who knows? |
| May 29th, 2020 | I feel like I can't justify the existence of this website without having some sort of content worth looking at, but when I try to think of what I might want to show or write about, I wind up with nothing. I feel like I just don't have anything substantial to who I am. I'll work on that, though. Getting into 3D modeling and even building this site have helped to make me feel more productive, but I still feel empty. |